This past week I shed more than a few tears over the quotes below. In particular, one night I felt I had blown things badly by losing all patience with a child's fickle fears (that seemed to always pop up just in time to procrastinate at bedtime.) She wanted me to lay beside her, and I just wanted bedtime and parenting duties to be DONE. So I turned down her request, turned off her light, and came downstairs to my flickering computer screen, only to find these thoughts piercing my selfish heart.
There are days that I feel I've done okay, and days when I feel that I'm the world's biggest failure. But there is never a day that I feel I have "arrived." And I guess, that is a good thing. I am a work in progress - as are my children.
I only pray I can extend to them the same grace they so generously share with me.
“No matter what problem or issue we face in parenting, our relationship with our children should be the highest priority. Children do not experience our intentions, no matter how heartfelt. They experience what we manifest in tone and behavior. We cannot assume that children will know what our priorities are: we live our priorities.
The laying down of our lives is not just about moving to the most impoverished country or preaching to thousands. But right in front of us, the child who would long to have our comforting touch and gentle voice of life-giving words, that he may imagine the voice and touch of God when He ponders faith as a young adult and chooses to believe because the reality of God was in his home.
The child who needs one more song to be comforted before sleeping, so that he might be able in adulthood to believe in a God who is patient and willing to answer prayer and hear our voice when we as his children cry out in faith.
The child who is lonely, confused, hormonal, who will feel the touch of God, the sacrifice of God as we give up the rights to our time and comfort to befriend and listen and show compassion and sympathy for what is on his heart.
- Sally Clarkson