Friday, October 27, 2006

Transparent ...

Some "transparent" thoughts for today ... The "waiting" part of adoption never gets easier. The "not knowing" is so hard! I have had many emotional days of late, and I struggle with these things and also with frustration at myself for not having stronger faith - for I have seen God do miraculous things in the area of adoption before! Sometimes one emotion prompts another, as was the case today ... I was thinking about our adoption situation and how much I long for the child God has in store for us, when I felt a poem stirring in my heart for the child we lost this summer. I thought I would share it here.

“eden”


why did you leave us?
couldn't you stay -
how long our hearts had hoped for this day!

years had gone by,
other dreams were fulfilled -
we trusted that this was what God had willed.

and then the surprise!
our emotions ran wild -
we never thought we'd be pregnant, with child.

and then you were gone,
like the clouds melt away -
our precious surprise, you were not meant to stay.

why did you leave us?
we never may know -
but you're not forgotten, for we love you so.


- shg 10.27.06

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I do not think your emotions are any indication of your spiritual strength. I can't imagine what you are going through since we've never experienced anything like it, but I can imagine it's very emotional at times! Keep the faith and keep your chin up! Love you!
Wendy