Steph~ Think about this...God already knows who your next baby is going to be. He has know since before the foundation of the world.
After Elijah we really wanted another boy and we specified that at first...later we felt convicted that we were trying to limit God or that we knew better than Him what was best for us. So we called our facilitator and told her we were open to either gender and God did bless us with the desire of our hearts...with Malachi. That's what I meant before when I said that sometimes I think He does test us to see if we are willing to fully trust him and obey His will...like Abraham.
Recently, our adoption agency director planted a seed in our minds about possibly opening up to either gender even though we had originally specified only a boy (for the first time in any of our adoptions - before, we had always left gender open.) Pedro and I have been talking and praying about it, and Judy was one of the friends I asked for advice.
We've come to realize that of first importance to us is that Owen has a sibling who shares his race ... and whether or not that sibling is a boy or girl, is of secondary importance. We'd still love for the sibling to be a boy, since this is most likely our last adoption and we think it would be great for Owen to have a brother to grow up with, but I think we can now leave this in God's hands and let Him decide. And so, we turn yet another corner in this latest adoption journey!
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So true! With Isabella, we would have been happy with either, but I kind of wanted a little girl just because my parents didn't have a granddaughter yet and I thought it would make it an extra special thing. But we didn't want to limit God either, we wanted it to be just as if we had gotten pregnant and He would choose the child that He wanted for us. And then we got the call that a baby girl had been born and she was tiny with this head full of dark hair and dark brown eyes - talk about being amazed at God's blessings!! Then with Amelia, we had the failed adoption happen and it was "supposed" to be a little girl. Then when everything fell through, I still thought it would be nice to have another little girl because I had sewn some things, plus I was thinking financially it would be easier having all the stuff to pass down, plus we had been constantly having Isabella talking about getting a baby sister...... When I talked to the new organization we were going through, she told me of a situation of a baby boy going to be born in Florida in a few weeks (this was March), I called Kenny and he said "Are you going to be happy with this? I thought we had talked about how we kind of would like another little girl... (for all those reasons above)" And I said "But we don't want to limit God and I would definitely rather have a little boy that God has picked for our family than just get my own selfish desire because (once again all the reasons above. :) and if its not the baby for us, God will have the birthmother say we're not the couple" To which he responded "That's true, Ok, let's see what happens" So I told the lady to send our profile and within 1/2 hour, I got an e-mail from her that said "I'm sorry, I think I gave you incorrect information - the baby to be born in Florida is a little girl....." and the rest is history! :) Of course, if we are able to adopt again, I do wonder what we will do. I still feel pretty sure about not requesting a sex, but my husband is leaning toward requesting a boy - not just because he desires to have a son, but because we have heard so many things about the waiting list for girls being so long, but not as many waiting for boys. I don't know -- I guess we will just have to continue to pray and see how God leads us. I do hope that He will bless us again with another child (not matter what the sex). God will definitely bring you the child He has meant for you and even if you are desiring a boy now and He gives you a girl, I'm sure you will look at that child and you won't be able to imagine your life without him/her!
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